Saturday, January 1, 2005
11:50 a.m.
Jordan Chan-Chen Muo
boy old song. i juts found my heartless you cd and ripped it onto my computer and i remembered this song along with 0932 so i decided to put it up. good song i like it.. it's what i consider "super fobby" becuase you really have to understand the lyrics.
Thursday, December 30, 2004
01:21 p.m.
Aikawa Nanase-Unlimited-
this is one helluva a song. too bad samurai 7 didn't live up to my expections. oh well
anyway. anyone reading this should tell me. it'll help me decide who to and not to kill in the future.
toodles
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
10:51 p.m.
Wendy Lan-Xia Tian de Feng
this lightning rocks my socks
merry christmas MPAA.
WRITTEN BY ME.
Oh how the mighty have fallen. On December 15th, 2004, www.isohunt.com, a popular Bittorrent site updated it’s news page with a list of it’s fallen companions, one of them being the monstrous www.suprnova.org, the biggest Bittorrent server on the net. The shutting down of servers started due to the cases brought up by the Motion Picture Association of America (MPAA) and it’s musical counterpart Record Industry Association of America (RIAA). Yet what caused this massive case to start in the first place, and why are all of these servers succumbing to this madness? We’ll analyze this in three parts. First we’ll see the source of this “problem” and analyze the Bittorrent program along with its Peer-to-Peer counterparts. Then we will investigate the pros and cons of shutting down the Bittorrent program and ultimately shows why I think these cases brought to court are completely idiotic.
Peer-to-Peer (P2P) came out big with the Napster phenomenon in the late 90s and eventually boomed to hundreds of P2P servers including Kazaa, Grokster, and various other programs to share media files such as movies and music. P2P literally started the file-sharing boom known to the world. However, Bittorrent is a different P2P program. In programs such as Napster and Kazaa, one downloads or “leeches” directly off one user, often ending up in slow downloads and lag tormented servers that eventually lead to huge amounts of crashes or virus problems. Bittorrent chops up the file in thousands of pieces and instead of one person connecting to another person he could download one part from one user, another part from a different user. This process greatly increases the download time and protects server crashes. Bittorrent, being completely unique from its counterparts, draws a huge audience, taking, according to www.theregister.co.uk, 53% of all P2P usage. However one of its weak points was that Bittorrent program still required a server or “tracker”, in order to maintain and overlook the thousands of downloads and uploads occurring. So now the RIAA and MPAA along with various European governmental agencies are trying to shut down various Bittorrent and eDonkey, another P2P program, tracker websites and servers by directly raiding and confiscating the hardware. In just December, again according to The Register, Dutch, Finnish, and French officials took down over 10 servers and arrested over 100 individuals for upholding eDonkey and Bittorrent websites. However, it seems to the average American that record companies have the right to stop illegal distribution because it disrupts sales, however that is not exactly the case.
In April of 2003, a Los Angeles judge dropped cases filed by the RIAA against two P2P groups, Grokster and SteamCast Networks, arguing that they supported illegal file distribution. However, the two networks we not liable for the distribution and that the only people liable were the program users, using the two networks as a middleman. Not only were the programs not liable, but the fact that Grokster and SteamCast was also used for legitimate purposes such as the sharing of movie trailers, and free songs, offered even more evidence. The judge also used the 1984 case against Sony filed by Universal where Universal argued that Sony’s video recorders allowed illegal copies of movies and shows to be made. The Supreme Court ruled in Sony’s favor, allowing video recorders to be manufactured. However right after the 2003 trial, the MPAA and the RIAA took the case to Supreme Court, who will further analyze the decision made. Not only are they trying to reargue the case, they are currently collaborating with a handful of senators to create the Induce Act, an act that could possibly ban the use of the ever popular IPOD from the nation. So obviously we have to ask, what is their motive for shutting down these sites and ultimately banning file sharing. Well for as far as I can see, there is none. According to a recent Harvard study, record sales have increased by 10% since 2003, and some of it being because of file sharing itself. If MTV had not broadcast the recent Linkin Park/ Jay-Z collaboration album, Collision Course, on their website with free samples. I would have never heard of it. Being an avid file sharer myself, I find that I find various new albums and talent online instead of on TV or on billboards, especially because the music I listen to is mostly underground based and low of the “big and famous” radar. Not only does it benefit the music users, it also benefits the artists. A great example, also from The Register, is the band Wilco, who was about to have their contracts dropped because of no commercial potential, however, because they made their songs free for download on various websites, they have drawn huge attention, obtaining another record deal. Finally and most importantly it benefits our safety. According the to New York Times, Microsoft had a security update blocking various amounts of virus and Trojans from infecting our computers. However their servers could not handle all downloads and the demand for their update. So a group of underground Bittorrent servers uploaded the security update and shared with the world, greatly decreasing the demand for the update and saving a lot of computer users from headaches.
So as the evidence shows itself, we see that P2P and Bittorrent has various amounts of positive uses, allowing the world to run more smoothly. However the RIAA and MPAA seem to think otherwise, pursuing what might affect them in the long run. It is why I ultimately reject their actions as well as the actions of foreign nations and our own congressmen for trying to stop file sharing. Strangely, it seems as though we are killing the wrong giants.
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
07:15 p.m.
ZOEII-Air Flight
i think that name tried to kill two birds with one stone. pretty dumb though. good song nonetheless.
anyway for those who actually read this thing, (i know who because most of them tell me about the song or something i posted or comment) thanks.
anyway i'm here to rant about how many crappy xangas i see everyday. well first off note that i only look at xangas of people from smhs or hms and BOY OH BOY! yeah anyway. mine's isn't perfect but it sure as hell is better (assuming you're not running firefox..i have to get my webbies fixed for firefox.) for the love of god find a better picture, learn a little html and maybe you could even photoshop a bit. one thing i hate the most is finding some layout off some site and then posting it up. all i notice is this big fat email and name that shows the creator. whatever. i guess i'm just pissed at all the lamers.
on the lighter note, i just got accepted to be a staff of anime-epoch, a place where i think it's great. they have a couple of low frame guys who check for reviews and stuff. they're a little short on reviews but they're really really detailed and i like that. anyway im off to finish essays and maybe start writing some reviews. happy new years people
Saturday, December 25, 2004
05:05 p.m.
Dong Bang Shin Ki-First Noel
new song again cause it's christmas.
anyway merry christmas
im too lazy to explain how mcuh fucking fun i had the last couple days. its times like these i feel alive.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
10:45 p.m.
As One-My Only Wish
uploaded a new song. as one-all i want for christmas is you.. i like this version a lot more cause im fob! =]
edit-started to hate the as one song. put up tension's "love's atm"
Thursday, December 16, 2004
06:34 p.m.
Little-I Sing I Say
Good song, yeah anyway this last week has been pretty interesting, i got to go hang out with jj's second period, occasionally teaching here and there and just absorbed andrew silverstein's greatness ( i would say silverstein but then that would infer kimi and.. yeah from now on silverstein = ANDREW silverstein whereas there is nothing interesting about kimi to talk about anymore.) ok so that's that. choir did nothing anyway. lets see yesterday, i thought my comp crashed and i fucked my ram over, but it's all good today so i guess my cmop just overheated, i have been treating it piece of crap so. anyway i defragmented, downloaded a buncha movies and animes. it's really fun to watch animes and movies i get all these ideas for my story that would work. like they would just pop into my brain. it's pretty cool. lets see, i started front mission 4 today, its a bit monotnous but in a fun way. where its cool absorbing everything. it's like a good thriller. im starting to read a lot more and im actually putting effort into my homework. marzipan's inspiration is really rubbing off on me. it's really cool (you really dont know this but you help me. a lot) i made a lot of cool new friends, talked to people i usually dont talk with. and realized my life isnt that bad.
but that doesnt chagne the fact that I WANT TO MOVE!
Monday, December 13, 2004
07:16 p.m.
MC Sniper-Bk Love
Yeah. anyway i like this song, its from windstruck, so i'm uploading it up to my blog. if you dont like it then turn off your speakers.
lets see. well on sat i had my c4 final. it was pretty strange but i think i at least b'd it. and then i went home and pretty much pigged out the whole day. went to brenda's party thing. i was pretty much bored. watched teh clippers lose to them damn lakers. that was depressing so i went home. sunday..tutor..madden..lots of sokyuu no fafner which is like a prettier NG EVA. and then hw . today was watching them zaft boys kick the ea's ass. gseed destiny rocks. yeah. then i watched my bro fuck with these clans on vent. funny ass shit. anyway im off. creds to jen for song.
Nice Guys Finish Last
This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girls every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.
This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they're at her door; for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population; for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway; for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters; for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don't end up being boyfriends; for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated. For all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.
This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn't worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you'd ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn't have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing serious between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: "Oh, but we're just friends!" And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you're nice like that.
The nice guys dont often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys dont seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can't. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as "Oh, he's too nice to date" or "He would be a good boyfriend but he's not for me" or "He already puts up with so much from me, I couldn't possibly ask him out!" or quite possibly the most frustrating of all: "No, it would ruin our friendship." Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can't figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I'm going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn't last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls; and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.
So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys.You know who you are, and I know you're sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.
what's it been for me. 6 out of 8? to the point i hate getting fucked over. and i always do. and what do i do with it? jack. i forgive. man.
anyway i just felt like i should share cause hey it does have some sense within it. btw if you think im a mean egotistical asshole, you obviously dont know me or i just hate you. sure i have my moments but they're only moments.
creds to jeff
Wednesday, December 8, 2004
08:40 p.m.
Orange Range-hana
According to my comments this is my 100th post. im dedicating this to my "gf" who i love dearly. thanks =]
yeah last two days have been tiring, i've been running around and singing my ass off. whatever, it's fun and i realized i have really really cool friends. that's a good thing. hey maybe i just wont die yet. just maybe
Monday, December 6, 2004
07:57 p.m.
Brown Eyes-She's Sending Me
for all that is good in the world, read the December 6th Sports Illustrated.
anyway i finished watchign windstruck today, which in a comedic way is a prequel to my sassy girl. i highly recommend it to anyone. ANYONE.
Thursday, December 2, 2004
09:13 p.m.
Saves the Day-Nightingale
if i were king of this night, would you become my queen?
and i hope your majesty, that you like your position
ill do everything i can, to keep you by my side...
wow what a day. man i've never felt so...whole... in my life. lets start from yesterday shall we?. woke up same ol same ol. math was boring. choir was relatively decent, i listened to my music on cheung's comp. break blah blah blah and then spanish and english yare yare. then lunch, lunch is when i realized that i have something here. you know.. something that's not worth leaving. i have people here that i care about. =/.. yeah then science, talked with celeste and yuri, that was fun, they're cool to talk too. then speech we continued our modernity rant.
the day kevin was moved
well it starts out basically the same. math..then choir we listen to the collision course i burned for thomas.. good stuff and i talk to cheung about exeter and it's kick ass concert choir. break i give bryan and yuri their cds. im sucha nice guy. and then spanish and english..barbarics said bitch. that was pretty weird the class kind of exploded on that. i dont get why. its not like she's not human. whatever. lunch time was when i tlaked to jessica michelle brenda and yuri. listened to the techno cd i burned for yuri and played hackey sack with stanley alex and kevin hung. i hate my shoes. they suck for hackey sack. theni went to bio, talked to yuri while absorbing this video. i really dont want to do bio right now. speech we took a quiz and as usual we looked at people's answers. john de witt won it for a day
1) john de witt was late and did not get the question
2) see number 1
3) see number 10
10)see number 4
4) see number 7
7) johnn de witt does not know the answer.
it was pretty hilarious when jj read it to us.
ok and then it was extemp practice, i really need to work on extemp.
why my day was so special. i come home at around 5 and i turn on my sassy girl thinking i would only watch the first half. boy was i wrong. i got hooked. this movie is genious. i love the whole concept. it made me warm inside. i felt like i had something within me. i wasn't empty anymore. i didn't feel so vengeful and hateful. i cared. i cared about life. i cared about my friends my family. i actually felt whole. man. that movie just kicks my ass, those two hours and 17 mins were one of the best of my life
then tutor, i sat through it thinking about my life then now im back ranting about it
Wednesday, December 1, 2004
08:14 p.m.
Sugizo-Rest in Peace and Fly Away
new layout. i love it
Monday, November 29, 2004
06:15 p.m.
Samurai Champloo-Aruarian Dance
edit- i have a death wish, so someone kill me. put me out of my misery.
yes my day sucked that bad
oh man, i dont know where to begin. this week has been one of the most kickass of all. yare yare well continuing from thanksgiving friday was basically mgs3 all day. 12 hours straight, beat the damn thing. i hope i get pop2 by this weekend. yeah ok then saturday i had this barbcue thing at my cuz's house. shitloads of fun, alright first we maddened 1978 xP with james and my cuz AND I OWNED THEM ALL! WHATTT BITCHES YOU CANT TOUCH MEE! it was slaughter yo, then some kickass barbecue food man good stuff, and then started a new mgs3 and everyone watched me kickass, it was the best ever..lol and then i quit and started to play TEXAS HOLD EM!! w00t! so many card games, blackjack, poker, spoons, speed, big 2.. mann and then dynasty warriors and tekken fun as hell. good times good times. i swear we got so high and we kept on shouting penis and the parents would come LOL IT WAS FUNNY AS HELL! yeah ok. then sunday was game and hw. not bad not bad. and then today just plain ass sucked. i have so much chinese hw i have to catch up on.
Saturday, November 27, 2004
09:54 a.m.
M-flo Loves Yoshika-Let Go
common baby lets go
wow pretty cool day yesterday. lets see i woke up at my usual 9-10 period after like 4 hours of sleep and then i started maddening' i swear i spend more time building the crapass chargers then actually playing with them.. see here's the story i have madden 2001 (i really should upgrade) so here i have the 2000 chargers right. who have no quarterback, (flutie and brees aren't even there) i have no rb (LT isnt there) i have no receiver (AG and co aren't there) so i have no offense, not to include a crappy line. so this is what peyton manning's third season? i drag him in buy losing junior seau and my FIRST TWO PICKS! MY LORD THAT GUY IS HARD TO GET! i leave my line alone, i get mr.anderson from teh falcons and i grab TO who pretty much sucks his soph year. i grab all the damn freeagents i can. chumra. sparks for d. etc etc. i trade some of them for some cb, i manage to get a newb chris mcallister and ty law. now i have no mlb and i go through my first season with my nwe crappass team AND I WIN THE DAMN SUPERBOWL! LOOKIT MY SKILL LOOOKIT! LOOKIT! get a good secondary, some linebackers, and GILBERT BROWN AS DEFENSIVE TACKLE! AND YOU HAVE YOUR FRICKIN D! i love you gilbert brown you damn fatass. and you have peyton manning with a tough hb that flinches at tackles and a couple decent receivers and you put up 40 pts a game. the way my season goes now. (im in my fifth year and team's getting better. my oline has jon janson.. my defense has a good mike mckenzie and a good chris mcallister. peyton's throwing to randy moss that holt guy from the rams and jerry porter with that pinkston guy from eagles. im going 40-10 every game.. if everyone's healthy. superbowl for 5 years STRAIGHT NUKAA!
wow.. im so lame
anyway so i play till like 2. and i wait...i wait.. for the damn mailman to come. and i watch mission impossible and the minute i see him i RUN OVER! AND GRAB MY METAL GEAR SOLID 3 I LOVE THIS GAME! THANK YOU GOD FOR BRINGING HIDEO KOJIMA DOWN TO THIS WORLD!
btw i love you
Thursday, November 25, 2004
10:02 a.m.
bi-nan
/move on.
pretty fun weekend so far. i went to school same ol' same ol' lol we had a helluva time in debate again. w00t! and then went to annelise's party with peo angie leo and andrew. cause i figured out tutor wasn't gonna come. hacky sacked with leo and andrew until caroline and annelise came back from hms. then we went to mall. well it was pretty weird..let's see..the girls went to take pictures so guys being guys went to eb. blah blah.. just looked around caues they have crappy deals. then went around and yeah..they went to eat while i went to go look for chuck hogan stuff, found none. went to gamespot for awhile, i wanted onimusha3, but i figured i'll buy a new one on eb for 15 bucks at home. amazon.com here i come. then went to eat and then went to watch incredibles where CBOX WOULDNT STOP TRYING TO TICKLE ME.. -_-;; haha xP but a great great movie b-_- then went back and maddened a bit..annelise and cbox called talked for a couple minutes. it's fun playing madden with one hand.. then i played STARFOX 64 w00t! ol'schoool!..yare then iwent to sleep.
falling for you =]
Happy Thanksgiving y'all, it's looking hella good for me right now ^_^
edit-
i love you
lets see. gamed most of the day and then went to my relative's house and ate a chinese-ized thanksgiving meal. we played texas hold em' fucking fun! lol it was funny and then watched part of nets and clippers game
i love you so damn much
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
09:19 p.m.
fly to the sky-you
fuck you. fuck you for doing this to me. fuck you for messing with my head. fuck you playing around. fuck you for using those meaningless words. fuck you for acting like everything was ok. fuck you for betraying me. fuck you for being you. fuck you for lying. fuck you
i've motherfucking exploded, stay the FUCK away from me and you wont get blasted by my FUCKING anger. i swear to fucking god i could kill you guys with my fucking bare hands and not give a shit.
FUCK YOU
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
05:24 p.m.
M-Flo loves Yoshiko-Let Go
Wow, a ballad with mflo? uploaded it onto blog. i cut it short to save space. stupid lauren hogs all the bandiwith. lol again if you want the full song tell me, its almost 6 mins long.
pretty bleak day, at 3rd period i grew really depressed adn tehn 4th period i felt like throwing up. i had fun in sixth though, good times good times.. army of silversteins haha
Monday, November 22, 2004
05:36 p.m.
Kristine Sa-The Truth Is
This song's frickin pretty as hell. You have a voice that rivals hikki's and then you bring in the ffx-2 theme. man.. and the lyrics...haha
but on the other note..
FUCK YOU ALL
Sunday, November 21, 2004
09:56 a.m.
Nu Flavor-Heaven
yare yare..anyway yesterday woke up pretty early, six ish.. and then went down to gabrielino for fall novice.. did impromptu and extemp.. did pretty good, messed up first extemp and first impromptu so got shit. oh well. walked around with bryan a lot and met some new people. basically what was probably most important was the fact in my 3rd impromptu round, i found some people from sghs yeah so basically .. now i know more people .. lol .. yeah..went to awards ceremony and mostly gabriellino people won..figures it's their tourney.. and then went home.
-tangent
man i love wearing blue shirts with like khakis, i think ill start dressing like a prep fag.. not really but.. whatever..
-end tangent
whatever, when i was going up san gabriel i started thinking about some stuff and the minute i got home i told yuri.. w00t yuri don't you feel special!? so me and yuri go on this wild chase to find this girl i met, jessica from sghs.. we go through like 300 xangas, and i find a frosh and soph and ask them about it and it was pretty much dead end so after 8-10 hours of looking and webscanning, i met a soph that has the same name and goes to debate like this jessica and then meet a freshmen guy on the team. that was pretty cool, two new peopel to bug. this morning i wake up and watch bleach and this freshmen guy asks me if i found her and i say no and i tell him she's a freshmen and he says he might know her.. and that she doesn't go online! great.
out of all the times i've looked for someone, this is the hardest i've tried every other time was the fact taht i knew their whole name, some of their friends (that i was pretty much close to). and even with that i dont find them, and i give up after 10 mins. lol. whatever, i dunno..what drove me
PS. thanks yuri, you're the best V-_-
Thursday, November 18, 2004
09:34 p.m.
Shinhwa-Crazy
here, this is the link to my fictional biography, i'm calling it mirror image, because it's a mirror image of myself.. ill load a pic for the other side later
click. boring day, wrote in MI, and bitched to a lot of people.
Thursday, November 18, 2004
03:41 p.m.
Fly to teh Sky-Still
well since i figured i had my thoughts cleared about the last couple of days ima rant about it.
yeah well im talking to people and they say its stupid and some said it was good that we broke up and crap like, and i just don't give a fuck.. i didn't dump you because i actually gave a shit.. too bad it wasn't mutual
well first off ima say that this stuff lets you know who your true friends are and who you can trust and crap like that. i'm glad that there are so many people that understand me and that i can bitch to them about anything
now about the whole damn month i wasted on this. it was fun for awhile, i think the last day i really enjoyed it was halloween, everything after was pretty stupid. you basically went off on your own. i didn't know what you thought of and i just figured you stopped caring, which kinda helped me through this simply because it didn't hurt as much, it just hurts for a longer period of time. but there's your reason for me questioning. it was empty. it's a basic highschool "love" and crap.. too bad i put all this trust in you and got shit back, i mean for reals, i thought i could have this relationship with you and it would last until we had a mutual agreement because of me moving or something, but that's hwo life is, you gamble with it, i just gamble a lot and lose a lot, no biggie. I have no soul anyway ^_^, good luck in life, i know one day i'll wake up, not give a shit, and eventually move (everything's good so far except for my grades) and then you don't have to deal with my crap anymore. i figured if you wanted to this, it was for teh reason taht you dont want me around. so don't worry aobut it =]. just sit tight for 6-7 months, ill be (hopefully) gone then..
but no friends. i'm not ok shit like this hurts. oh well.
edit- i do care about you though, and i do love you, and i do miss you.. cause i didn't ask you out for fun. whateverr.. thought i should tell the world.
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
11:16 p.m.
origa-rise
VOX IS MY HERO
"surely i am an idiot. to think that i might have a chance with the one whom ive loved for so long again.. was just foolish.. how could i even think she even might have the slightest feeling for me.. and i know that im totally wrong.. and i need to move on.. its been too long.. and now that we talked and caught up with each other.. ive learned that im mearly a friend now.. love is such a arduous feeling.. a feeling that i will never feel again.. a feeling that once had me so tightly grasped in its hand.. and dropped me over and a flaming pit of hell.. its hopeless.."
i had this story up..but then i decided to take ti down until..yeah..anyway if you REALLY REALLY wanna read it..(i highly doubt you do) then tell me.
comment about MI in this post please
greatly appreciated.
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
10:01 p.m.
Fly to the Sky-Gravity
BOSTON ROCKS MY SOCKS
edit- i know you two can't read this..not yet at least! i know ill come back soon and watch you guys grow up but thanks for helping me yesterday..
anyway went on plane got off at logan international..went to andover..checked into hotel and then went to this restraunt called teh chateau..good italian food..i think it's mafia run..anyway went back to hotel and stayed a night..next morning went to andover and walked around school..didn't like it very much..then went to exeter and had lunch at loaf and ladle..BEST SOUPS EVER! and then went to a local bookstore and some other shops and bought a simpsons chess set..i was gonna give one to..yeah.. oh well .. anyone want one? DAN BROWN'S FROM EXETER..SO HAH! I LOVE EXETER!~ GO BIG REDD YAYY!! (btw you have to come missy.) yeah and then went to deerfield..ate at wolfie's for dinner..pretty good..and slept..went to deerfield interview..the place is frickin HUGE its like 100x the TOWN of san marino. think like from lacy park to santa anita mall..with a bunccha forest and crap and then multiply it by god knows how much. there are more football and soccer fields then the school can use! LOL! and then went to concord ate at walden's grille..overrated but good.. and then went to buy books..pretty cool..saw a cool qutoe from exeter from winnie the pooh and bought a thing of winnie the pooh for her.. but now..yeah -_-;; anyway concord's too small.. i don't like it..anyway off to boston/harvard..my god AU BON PAIN IS SO GOOD! frickin mountain dew with a raspberry cream cheese crossiant is GOD LIKE! LOVE MOUNTAIN DEW! go caffine! anyway met up with my mom's friend and went to nearby newton..they have three daughters, one goes to harvard, and the other two are in 6th and 2nd grade.. SO CUTE! and frickin smart too! they're learning what we're learning now O_o..lol the power of private schools..anyway it was pretty fun hanging out with them..but then i found out about kimi and stuff and i got pretty mad.. got online check email checked stuff and crap crap crap... went to sleep for 3-4 hours (i did that every night) and then went to MILTON! OMG I LOVE MILTON TOO! i wanna go to exeter or milton..yummerz.. then went to prudential building or whatever..and went to this seafood restraunt..i didnt know what it was called.. to tired.. yeah REALLY GOOD SEAFOOD! anyway went to au bon pain and bought stuff for home and set out to go to airport..flew back where i read a lot of "prince of thieves" by some guy..that i'll telly ou ltaer about... i really can relate to the main character with his darkness and his problems that he can't deal with becaues it's so restrictive.. his near suicidal ploys and the fact that he falls fora girl that he holds hostage while robbing a bank, the girl doesnt know he did it becasue he was under a mask. but it talks about this guy who's pretty corrupted (im fucking corrupted to the core) who falls for the girl of his dreams. i didn't finish but if he get's fucked over then i got myself a mirror image
which brings me to the fact taht i'm starting a fictional biography of the dark me. it's going to consist of the time period of me between joyce and after this crapass gayness wtih kimi that really really bugs me. ill start chapter 1 with next post, it's all in my head.. many of the characters are real people under diff names and ages.
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
10:34 p.m.
Jay-Z and Linkin Park-lying for you/dirt of your shoulder
let me take back my life, i'd rather be all alone...the very worst part of you...is Me
thanks guys. peo angie sharon and of course EVELINNEEE
Sunday, November 14, 2004
12:27 a.m.
jay-z is playing in my head
DAY THREE OF SIX OF KEVIN'S PAIN MISERY AND SORROW
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY KIMI!!!
mmm i love you sooooooo muchh..i'm sorry i couldn't be with you today..but i miss you and i'll always be thinking of you..cause i LOVEEE YOUUU =]
Saturday, November 13, 2004
04:59 p.m.
Kension-Parting (piano vers.)
DO I HAVE TO MAKE YOU GUYS COMMENT?
DAY TWO OF SIX OF KEVIN'S PAIN MISERY AND SORROW
i can't live without kimi..haha xP
wow i feel like crap worst day of my life
anyway..last night i slept at 11 i woke up at like 5 or 6 or something and then drove 40 mins to testing place..took a test for 4 hours..blah blah blah..went home and ate JACK SHIT! watched linkin park and jay-z collab on mtv and then went to bball tryouts..wow i SUCKED i swear i almost fainted.. fucking no energy whatsoever left in me.. so i started feeling dizzy and fell down a lot.. teeth started bleeding and itching..you know like when you take ecstasy.. lol.. MAN I FEEL LIKE SHIT on top of taht i didn't get to see kimi. whatever, i leave tomorrow, i love you kimi.. more then you'll ever know
God help me..someone help me..save me from this misery..I NEED TO KNOW
lol..who's going to be my guiding star..down on bended knee..
vox is thy man
Name 3 Things That You Wish You Had:
+ big ass tv
+ a car
+ A LIFE
Name 3 Scents You Love:
+ kimi's shampoo..harharhar
+ new car
+ poo ( i dunno )
Name 3 Things You'd Never Wear:
+ any type of thong
+ female clothing
+ a bra
Name 3 Things You Are Thinking About Now:
+ kimi
+ kimi
+ kimi
Name 3 Of Your Favorite Singers/Bands:
+ HIIKKII!!
+ David Tao
+ AKFG
Name 3 Things That You Have Done Today:
+ SSAT
+ talk to people
+ danced
Name the Last 3 Things You Have Bought:
+ soda
+ movie tickets
+ candy
Name 3 Drinks You Regularly Drink:
+ Milk
+ Gatorade
+ Water
Last Person You Hugged?
+ kimi
Last Thing You Laughed At?
+ Bryan Wei's fucking stupidity..lol
Last Time You Cried
+ couple days ago
Whats in your CD player?
+ hah. cd player.. what's that?
What color socks are you wearing?
+ white yoo!
What's under your bed?
+ clothes.
What time did you wake up today?
+ 5
Current hair?
+ short..w00t!
Current clothes?
+ white tshirt white shorts white socks.. damn im white
Current Annoyance?
+ i don't konw the damn TRUTH
Current desktop picture?+ Astral Smooth Blue
Current worry?
+ ..i don't know the damn truth
Current hate?
+ i don't know the damn truth
Last CD you bought?
+ i think in second grade, i bought this bsb cd
Favorite place to be
+ "in between my headphones" amen.. or holding kimi.. or headphones and holding kimi.. MY LORD!
Least Favorite Place
+ whenever i'm NOT with kimi
If you could play an Instrument?
+ pshh
Favorite color?
+ black
Do you believe in an afterlife? + for sure, i'm going to hell
How tall are you?
+ 6'1
Favorite season?
+ winter
Favorite day?
+ saturday
Where would you like to go?
+ under the stars on that hill overlooking the city, and sharing it with my loved ones
Friday, November 12, 2004
09:52 p.m.
Kension-Parting (piano vers.)
yo fuckers, it's stillDAY ONE OF SIX OF KEVIN'S PAIN MISERY AND SORROW
i can't live without kimi..haha xP
wow i feel like crap
anyway got up and messed aroudn a bit..and then did hw..got my hair cut and tehn pansy came to pick up the damn controllers..blah blah blah..yeah ok..fun part..anyway im prepping for tomorrow's test when i see eveline and we strike up this long convo about seeing each other when we're older and crap it was pretty cool
EVELINE'S PRETTYY =]
Friday, November 12, 2004
08:11 a.m.
Boyz II Men - Four Seasons of Loneliness
DAY ONE OF SIX OF KEVIN'S PAIN MISERY AND SORROW
i can't live without kimi..haha xP
im gonna miss you.. don't be too happy when i'm gone ^_^.. i love you
Edit- changed song to onoken's vijore.. but since it's way too big, i had to cut it, if you want the full version then ask me
edit2-.. love this song
I swear
By the moon and the stars in the skies
And I swear
Like the shadow that's by your side
I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my part
'Cause I"ll stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart
And I swear
By the moon and the stars in the skies
I'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse, 'till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear
I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the walls
And when just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
'Cause as the time turns the page, my love won't age at all
Thursday, November 11, 2004
09:38 p.m.
ZOE-Battle Remix
techno's good for you. go listen now..i love how my woofers and damnass loud speakers bounce me around. love it... boom..boom..boom.. i swear i'm gonna die, or at least go deaf, because of techno
no fucker. i can't hear you
V-_-
yeah anyway, today i woke up watched samurai champloo and bleach.. great ass stuff..and started conquering the damn FUCKING RUSSIANS in civ, cossacks are a pain in the ass, but nothing matches my damn fucking cities pumping out 10+ calvary a turn NOTHING I TELL YOU! I'M THE FUCKING KING OF THE WORLD!..yeah..ok.. =]..anyway afterwards mom brought home food from this yummy japanese place. so i got fried shrimp (not tempura) with japanese curry fried rice.. no time to eat because i was supposed to meet up for movies..went to pick up andrew dimitri and enzo and then went to amc.. went to go get andrew's halo 2 but he didnt have a adult with him so he couldnt get it from gamespot..went to amc saw josh..andrew and dimitri then went to go get halo at eb..and HE GOT IT! HUZZAHH! ::angel's sing::..yeah..halo's overhyped.. gl guys.. and then saw a buncha people came..but everyone was FRICKING LATE. so i get pretty moody..then wtached shark tales..and yeah it wasn't great..but it didn't suck...so whatever. as long as i spend time with kimi, then i'm fine i guess.. well to me it's pretty...yeah lauren knows!
anyway..was gonna go home but then andrew was being a FAG! so then we had to "wait" for him..but then i realized i lost my mp3 player..so i had to go back and look for it.. no luck..oh well went home..ate..watched more samurai champloo..and then plaeyd more civ..surfed teh web for mp3s and crap..and tehn talked to people..got really really depressed again simply because all this is becoming a big pain in the ass.. basically day went from a 7 to a 10 to a negative 100x9999999.. whatever, if i don't leave i'll prolly kill myself
heh, yeah mayo.. i guess you're right.. thanks
edit- new song. techno. thanks b.wei
edit2- heh well this one's for you then. since you seem so much happier with them i figure that next time you can do it with no strings attached. yeah?..good luck.. have fun. good game..strike 2 heh someone keep an eye..
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
09:04 p.m.
OZONE-Diagoste din tei
STUPID YURI! got this sogn stuck in my head
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARZIPAN! I LOVEE YOUU
Tuesday, November 9, 2004
07:59 p.m.
Wolf's Rain- Run, Wolf Warrior, Run
Run, wolf warrior, to ends eternal
Through the wreckage of the death of the day
Scent of silence under starlight spinning
A captured beast within a human skin
Are you searching for long lost landscapes
Lit by flowers and crystal cascades?
Where the lamb lies down with the lion
Where the wolf is one with the wild
Run, wolf warrior, through kingdoms' chaos
Senseless cities and ghost towns towering
Howl, O hunter, though few know you're crying
Face upturned into that midnight moon
Are you hunting for mystic mountains
Where the air is like liquid laughter?
Where the beasts inherit the earth
Where the last again will be first
Run, wolf warrior, to hide your hunger
The rain will wash away the pains of the day
In your eyes there are cold fires burning
Tongues of flame that can never be tamed
Are you running from Man's delusion
Majestic madness and your exclusion
To where the lamb lies down with the lion?
Are you running down ancient pathways
Through this dark and deserted land
To where man is once more a child?
Are you running to freedom's fortress
By the side of wide open seas
Where the wolf is one with the wild?
Run, run, run...
Run, run, run, run, run, run on, run on through the rain...
good song
haha this is so funny and sad at the same time.. man do i feel like shit
anyway..pretty plain day so im not gonna post..man do i feel like SHIT!
Monday, November 8, 2004
07:23 p.m.
Underoath-I'm Content With Losing
I really should start on hw..haha
anyway i stealing from peo cause im BORED
RULES: Write a statement intended for 14 different people. NEVER TELL which one is for who.
1) HOOLLIDAAEE INNNN!!! heh. dammit lady you're the best friend anyone could ask for... haha thanks for everything and always being there to help through the downs and enjoying the ups in my life.. if I were to ever lose you I wouldn't know what to do.
2) hey wsup nutmeg, you know how to make me laugh at the dumbest jokes..haha thanks for all the crap you've helped me through.. and all the songs and movies you've given me. btw you still have my infernal affairs and i still have your kenshin and chris rock stuff.
3) Hey loser, haven't seen or talked to you in awhile, but i know you're doing just frickin dandy.. sucks that you had to go and we all (tin tin and me) miss you lots.. come back soon and be happy!
4) Whoa..hotness ;] 'nuff said.. xP we've kinda been breaking off too, don't get to messed and quit GODDAMMIT, it's a bad habit.. (1023413th time ;]) haha good times
5) HALLLLLOOOO, man if you're reading this you wont even know i'm talking to you, but ima be sure to go to your graduation ::nudge nudge:: ;] heh i haven't talked to you in awhile..sure you get a little annoying and just piss the shit outta me xP (kidding) but taht doesn't mean i don't love you!
6) Sure i've been crying because about the time i was your boyfriend (part II) ;] and yeah we weren't as close as we used to be but it's getting better again..right?? but the next time you ask for help 3 minutes before a test ima smack you -_-..heh love you lots
7) HEY HEY~ FUCK YOU! ..heh fag.. now im using it all over the place.. heh thanks for everything, especially that one day, you probably saved my life LAH!
8) mayo rocks my socks.. haha i figure you deserve a spot in here because i've gotten so close to you in such a short time.. and don't worry about him.. he's an ASSS
9) ::PULL:: ::points and laughs:: iono why i'm adding you in here..maybe im running out of people to add (wow im such a loner) but i figure since you helped me waste so much of my time on anime that you should be here.. plus you're COOOOOOLLL ..not like everyone else..
10) I love my marzipan (that kinda gave it away) haha thanks for helping me when people were buggin the shit outta me..even though you always would go off into your little world..
11) HIII DITCHERR!! happy belated birthday by the way..haha it's been so frickin fun talking to you and getting to know you and stuff.. thanks for always leaving me and ditching me... ditcher -_- ::throws poo:: xP
12) I have the COOLEST GIRLFRIEND! EVER! haha even though we barely know each other you've helped me and shown me that life is worth living for.. im sorry that i haven't been the best bf but i promise to make it up to you. god i love you so muchhh =] mi ahn nae.
13) miageta yozora no hoshitachi no hikari remember how that always used to be our dream as "little people".. haha thanks for being there over the summer when everyone left or i was just being a bitch and you wouldnt stop bugging me to help me out.. haha i'm so glad tin tin introduced us to each other..
14) this one probably means the most haha i bet you don't know that you would be here, sorry for being an ass to you when in reality you were one of the closest friends i've ever made.. thanks for helping me all those times (or trying to) but you're still gay!
15) HEY FOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLL wsupp..see in a couple months i wont be in the same state as you and you can't be my "gf" anymore [remember that? taht was frickin hilarious] ..too bad huh =] thanks for beign a buddy..buddy..buddy buudy budddy buddyy
Sunday, November 7, 2004
11:55 a.m.
Orange Range-Asterisk
studying all day..i wanna watch the eagles and steelers game...heh
got this from kimi
post a memory of me as a comment for this entry.
it can be anything you want
maybe your first or maybe your favorite (don't get what this means..but i figure someone will tell me.)
edit2- deleted edit one. i dont want to scream and bitch here but you know what? FHKLCHJOLUAJKLFUJ FUCK YOU
Saturday, November 6, 2004
09:59 p.m.
Se7en-Munshin
Great song. anyway went to take isee today, pretty easy.. no one special there so was pretty quiet the whole time. went home and blah blah blah played some madden and conquered most of china and celts in civ =] haha im such a fag. oh well. tomorrow is tutor study and applications. hwa. sorry john prolly not going..not that i know you're going
..i'm so cold.. someone help me..
Thursday, November 4, 2004
06:19 p.m.
Mae-Summertime
i don't know...nothing really significant really happened today except that i went all the way to the second last flame of recca episode (i skipped around) in two days..haha
Wednesday, November 3, 2004
07:05 p.m.
Postal Service-Such Great Heights
I haven't heard this song in awhile..good times.. come back soon courtney...anyway..i hated today simply because i did.
whee.iono if my question got answered, but that sure as hell felt good to talk to you
I LOVE KIMI LOTS AND LOTS!
Tuesday, November 2, 2004
05:29 p.m.
Flame of Recca Title Song
yeh, i'm updating while this damn thing loads. anyway bad day..fucking gay.. let's not talk about it..and i suck at bball even more then ever..fucking injury..FUCK
i guess i was wrong.
Monday, November 1, 2004
06:39 p.m.
DongBangShinGi-Mideoyo
new layout..good day cause I saw kimi.. i tried to revolve this more around her then me, but it's still bleach so i guess it still revolves around me..
edit-EMPTINESS. God I feel so blank and broken. I feel like I have no SOUL..am I that heartless?
Sunday, October 31, 2004
11:17 a.m.
Orange Range-Asterisk
new layout. dedicated to kimi..AGAIN! =] based on the manga bleach..song is orange range's asterisk tv version though. i figure it'll only take 1:30 secs for you guys to readthis.
Edit-
miageta yozora no hoshitachi no hikari..
the light from the stars in the night sky above us..-*
best halloween ever, for sure. woke up played a little civ and just kicked teh fucking ass out of them celts =] go koreans! and then some hw..blah blah blah..then went to tutor where it was pretty...eventful..and then home and more civ and then some hw and watched some nfl highlights. GO PACKERS! and the steelers beat them patriots so 21 ends. steelers are one helluva team. anyway then watched about the origin's of dracula..pretty cool. then off to sexy kimi's house and it was all dark so it made me sleepy. we watched sleeping hollow but john and toby wouldnt SHUT UP! then watched people eat and watched beginning of ghost ship then out to trick or treat...where people were daring each other and jo and courtney was scaring kimi and she kept grabbing on..which isnt a bad thing ;] ::nudge nudge:: then toby took his shirt off -_- yeah..after talking about fetishes and walking it was back to kimi's where they watched darkness falls and saw yuri [genyk] and danny and then went home..tried to finish hw but i couldnt do it because im a damn ld newb.
Saturday, October 30, 2004
05:14 p.m.
Jay Chou-Ge Qian
i hate halloween..
today- chinese school pretty boring and then home and played some football and then reinstalled civ and messed around with it again..pretty bleak..ima start hw/cramming soon
edit- BLEACH IS THE BEST ANIME!~ EVER!
Friday, October 29, 2004
07:32 p.m.
Asian Kung Fu Generation-Mirai no Kakera
good day..very good day..
Thursday, October 28, 2004
11:15 p.m.
Shinhwa-Ih Bun Man Kkeum Eun
I haven't felt this bad for awhile.. i mean it's like being dumped but i didn't get dumped.. i don't know what to do
God, if you're out there, please save me from this misery... kill me now..
edit- "but you know girls and their damn manipulativeness.. leading on a guy then kicking him in the face like they didnt have a clue and they never speak to you again. shiesty yo."-vox
is it just me or does this guy just read my mind and understand whatever is going through my head.
Thursday, October 28, 2004
05:01 p.m.
Asian Kung-Fu Generation-Kimi no Machi Made
KEVIN LOVES KIMI-SAN
pretty good day..saw kimi again..yayy! but i still need to talk to her -_-..haha nothing really special so just leave it like that..
and chris and lauren, you're welcome...btw everyone should listen to... ASIAN KUNG FU GENERATION!..look at what it did to chris.. it's good for you
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
08:43 p.m.
Shnabubula-JAZZ PIANO
I HATE THIS WORLD
kimi if i havent already, i need to talk to you..call me or something
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
04:16 p.m.
Shnabubula-JAZZ PIANO
Rotated two new songs..took off Se7en's Honey I Know and Tension's Timeless for Shinhwa-Crazy and A FFIV remix by shnabubula..jazz style..snazzaay xP.. pretty good day..considering that i got to see kimi ^_^
edit- I haven't cried like this for awhile...whhat's wrong with me..(even though my reason for doing so is completely relevant)
wow do i feel betrayed. i'm giving you one chance to give me one good excuse. no excuse means no deal
Monday, October 25, 2004
08:49 p.m.
TM Revolution-Ignited
I have a bad feeling about this... this isnt RIGHT.. fuck this is going to be the death of me. for sure. bye guys.. see you in hell
Edit..it hurts so much..mi ahn nae...bye...
Saturday, October 23, 2004
04:34 p.m.
Rufio-Above Me
I'm Sorry...I Really Wanted to Go..I Love You
went to homecoming yesterday..went home afterschool and gamed a bit, changed clothes and left at around 5:30 or what not.. saw patty and annelise there..blah blah blah..bballed a bit and ankle didnt actually hurt (it's just really sore today -_-) and then mp3/walked around..then saw kimi and went inside...i was pretty tired by then so i just kinda sat and absorbed..heh.. we lost..some of the calls were pretty bad -_- and then i have no idea why that last touchdown didnt count...or maybe he didn't go into endzone but what the hey..sm lost..9-13 and then went home..slept..woke up at 10:30 (thank lord..some sleep) ..gamed a bit..then kimi called asked if i wanted to go movies..but i can't because it's rush week where i have to isee study and ssat for the whole week. i basically sat down from 12-4 and tested non stop. im breaking and then back to tests i go. this really sucks, my life as i know it, is going to cahnge until i come back from east coast, which is like 18th, and then on 20th i have a ix competition..this is pretty fucked.. cousin's back in sm today, so i get to listen about his life at dinner today. his life is interesting.. man's the ultimate capitalist, meaning he's smart, has money and has a gf that plays starcraft with him. (maybe they broke up i dont know yet) how cool is that.
edit. finished dinner..and then gamed a bit..and watched an exeter video and everything relating to prep school seems so close.. i don't know if i'm ready for all this crap yet.
Thursday, October 21, 2004
05:37 p.m.
Jay Chou-The Island's Iron Box
OH MY GOD! IT'S BEEN ONE! WEEK!!
happy anniversary hun.. I LOVE YOU!!
PS..does one week count?
EDIT-EVERYONE PRAY (or do whatever you do) FOR JENNY! she'll be "let go" if she doesn't wake up by the end of tonight. she has tubercolosis... me, i'll be wishing for the best, because God is dead or isn't answering my calls... daniel my wishes go out to you too, i know it must be tough for you.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
09:39 p.m.
AKFG-Kimi no Machi Made
Something doesn't feel right.. I don't like the feeling of this... fucking.. it's time like this i wish i moved.
anyway school..everything was wet..1st was math test..which was so frickin boring it wasn't even funny...choir started carmina burana..or however you spell it..and then spanish..went late..and english failed..blah blah blah..bio was pretty much the same..speech was bored out of my miserable mind..went home.. wtached samurai 7..english tutor..more samurai 7..dinner..read scarecrow cause i got it today..one of reilly's better books.
but seriously. I FEEL LIKE SHIT...something bad's gonna happen. i feel it.
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
09:39 p.m.
AKFG-Mirai no Kakera
Kevin Loves Kimi-San.. and Happy Bday JJ
today was ok.. woke up late so i was stoned getting into school..math was same.. we practiced our "stage presentation" in choir or w/e..then break blah blah blah...spanish was quiz..english was...-_-..lunch spent time with kimi..which really rocks...bio was video...and speech was alright.. haha we all did crap on theory blocks.. and it was JJ's bday so that was pretty cool ..man today was pretty plain..hahah then went to vball game >< they lost in last set which sucked.. walked home..ate my only meal of the day..ahah napped and then boba and hw
Monday, October 18, 2004
05:48 p.m.
W-inds-Shiki
Kevin Loves Kimi-San
I was bored of Reason coming up everytime i opened my blog. so i changed it. haha. anyway today was...same ol day. nothing special really happened.
edit. kimi doesnt konw my bday..haha..anyway we went to eat sushi ...coro night.. and damn it was good. end edit
Friday, October 15, 2004
06:44 p.m.
Tension-Goodbye Song
Kevin Loves Kimi-San
pretty basic day...got our suits in choir today and math was pretty stupid. spanish was same ol.. test in english..bio was some dumb crappy thing that i bsed..heh..and then speech was talking about theory blocks.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
07:23 p.m.
Jared Hudson-Troubled Feelings
Uploaded a new song! be patient it's a big file! it's nami tamaki's reason..plus as you've noticed i made a new layout based on gundam seed destiny. i dont really wanna dedicate this to kimi simply because it's nerdy but it does show how much i love her.. kinda. anyway. enjoy
today was one helluva day in my life
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
10:44 p.m.
Sugizo-Rest in Peace and Fly Away
man this sucks. whenever something good happens to me, something bad completely screws it over. gahh sarang hae yo..mi ahn hae. =\..anyway on to today's day. Woke up..went to hms..saw a buncha 8th graders..most of them annoy the crap out of me but hey!. then saw kimi and then we walked around..went to rami's..talked about science vids! and then went to kido and then went out to draw circles for volleyball serving test. and then peo and andrew came.. umm then went to valentine! and yeah..it was my FIRST TIME TO VALENTINE! so that was pretty awesome. i can dunk on their basketball hoops =]. and then saw joanne and courtney went to play football where dumbass andrew who can't throw got everyone all dirty and crap. yeah and then we went back to rami's and then just as we were about to leave we saw wilson. which was really cool. and then followed andrew to washington mutual to watch him get his monayyy while jo and courtney went starbucks. we went to lollicup but it closed. so then went to school, dropped our stuff, and then went to starbucks, while 100 guys chased andrew. pretty fun.. came back reg school crap. math was about sequences IN CHOIR I OWNED IN BIG 2 TODAY! i swear if i were betting i wouldve went up like 100 bucks in 6 games. (i lost two games) spansih blah..english blah..bio blah..speech blah.. then i went to the girl's vball game cause i promised peo and kimi i would..and tehn went home ordered books..updated mp3..talked..and then yeah.
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
09:20 p.m.
Utada Hikaru-Sakura Drops
OMG MARZIPAN I LOVE HER SO MUCH!..do you even know who i'm talking about?
late start. went to huntington. will update later no doubt
EDIT- FUCK. THIS. SHIT. I swear I'm heading into another depression. END EDIT-
Monday, October 11, 2004
10:42 p.m.
supergreenx-save me
well it's official. I love her.
Uploaded AKFG-Loop and Loop onto blog. love asian kung fu generation.
editchanged it to ffx-2 - seal of the wind~the three trails~, it flows, in my opinion, better
edit-1 changing it to jared hudson-Dream great song.
visit his site. hudsonstudios.net
Sunday, October 10, 2004
10:37 p.m.
supergreenx-save me
well it's official. I love her.
Anyway, yesterday i went to chinese school..blah blah blah..then on to leo's house! where we soul calibered most of the day. then eddie and calvin left so me and leo just switched off ps2 and comp...then we went eat islands with leo eddie grace (his cousin) and leo's dad. good stuff. then back to leo's house to watch him pwn in dota. haha funny stuff "HOLY SHIT!" "HOLY SHIT!" "HOLY SHIT!"
then today i woke up, watched some football. then wennt to tutor..watched rams game. FUN AS HELL! SO CRAZY! BULGER WENT ON FIRE! tomorrow's titans and packers game. go packers!..then ate or something. then talked to "her" which made my day even better and then now im hwing and helping lauren with ehr xanga.
Thursday, October 7, 2004
09:03 a.m.
Nothing
In cheung's room again..we're all messing around so here i am blogging. anyway..events at jack howe. woke up at 5:30 on sat and then went to csu long beach..congress when i got there and they were uber unorganized with all their crap and so we ended up having really crappy rounds..then went extemp and stuff..and then went back talking to miller and then woke up at 5:30 again with only 4 hours of sleep and then foudn out i didnt break in anything so i went watching extemp rounds and a policy round.. policy's so frickin fun to watch. They all talk super fast and then they cuss at each other ahahah.. it's so funny.. anyway went home, sm won third yada yada yada..everyones singing and learning each other's chinese name..it's so stupid..
Sunday, October 3, 2004
09:54 p.m.
Nothing
I'm stealing my bro's comp because something quite significant actually happened to my life. Jack Howe Forensics Tourney. It was pretty fun. Competed in my first tourney but didn't break =..oh well.. highlights of the trip.. talked to a lot of people "made new friends"..laughed at ben rip his frickin pants..hahaha..and first comp. ill talk about it more in depth if i have time sometime this week.
Friday, October 1, 2004
09:01 a.m.
Nothing
Blogging in Choir! we're done with singing so cheung let me. Yay. Let's see..well went to speech and filed, did an outline then went to math and took a test..blah blah same ol.. anyway on to some philosophical crap.
I was talking to a couple people about my vision of the future, it was kind of weird. I mean I watched this show where people supposedly could "tell the future" and this one guy was in this coma and had these dreams all about natural disasters and here Florida is being threatened by the fourth tropical storm. It's kind of scary, he predicted that california would be an island and 80% of the world would be underwater in the next 2 decades. Which brings up the topic of religion (I promised i would write about it and here i am) . The question at hand is if there is something beyond life on earth. Or all the materials we acheive are the pinnacle of our miserable little lives. God (Yes im still technically Christian) supposedly makes my life horrible with these crap ass change of events. So yes, there is a God but what is s/he or it. Is it some nature or is it just our minds playing tricks on us and everything is a huge coincidence ( there's even a religion that says so "everything is a huge coicidence, everything we do is coincidence..etc.") pretty stupid. Everything history has written has been recorded religiously... whatever. im gonna stop my endless rambling God I'm so stupid
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
11:03 p.m.
Nothing
Well, my comps crashing a lot, so until i buy a new one (which might be in 5-9 months or tomorrow) i wont be online for a long long time. It'll take awhile because i don't know if i'm gonna buy a laptop or a pc (laptop for prep school.. pc if i dont get in) anyway. If you guys wanna talk and i'm not online. call me...it's not like it matters anyway.. but yeah. This also might break a lot of "relationships" with people i have online and at school because i don't see them a lot. so goodbye and if i come back in july or august becasue i didn't make it to some school.. ill talk to you then. if not then good luck in life, i hope i can meet you guys sometime. bye.
Monday, September 27, 2004
08:00 p.m.
Jared Hudson-The Frontier
let's see.. how was my day? woke up early to go into the fog and when i saw it when i got out of my bed instantly ran out and stood there. for like five minutes. it was pretty cool. like this meditation thing i do when im bored or pissed. beats cutting myself i guess (although i still do it once in awhile)...let's see... went to forensics at 0 period, fell asleep in 3rd (or almost) ate at lunch so i felt a bit better. 5th people were just pissing the shit out of me. 6th was pretty fun listening to JJ talk about the funny ass things that people did at Jack Howe last year and what we should do/wear. speech rocks. calms me down. came home, watched espn went to nap and started hw. at 7:15.
Friday, September 24, 2004
09:52 p.m.
Se7en-Honey I know
I feel really nostalgic right now..why? well let's start out with when i woke up.. I wake up.go to school..assembly..boring as hell..finish school..come home..yada yada yaa.. game/chinese stuff. then i started talking to nabichan about songs, and one of her songs on her rotation is Coco Lee's Love Song 2000.. which reminded me of meeting her for my tailor thing for grad. Which was pretty cool because it was like 4 people, me, mom, tailor, and coco lee. (i think there were peopel outside waiting for her) Anyway..the tailor's religious and knows dhala lama ..that famous buddisht guy..like the pope of tibeten buddhism. so not much of a suprise to see famous people there. Anyway.. i didn't like coco lee much at that time.. but listening to this song makes me think of how much i missed from that meeting like buggin the crap outta her for shit or just complmenting her on her prettiness and music. plus her spirited really lifted me that day because i was down and stuff =| this sucks.. COCO LEE IF YOu'RE READING THIS! THANK YOU!
Thursday, September 23, 2004
05:38 p.m.
Se7en-Honey I know
went to choir with bro today at 7, saw all these little people..and then went around saying hi to teachers, kido, wilson..etc..went to starbucks..went to 400, talked with rodriguez for awhile..school as it was.. i actually could breathe today so singing was a bit easier...then boring crap..yadayadayada.. came home and TALKED TO VAN VI ABOUT KPOP! pretty fun... btw.. ben you owe me 15 bucks and need to help me with my agd's/jokes/quotes.
right now. i'm really angry at some people because i just am. It's a continual build up.. oh well i'll just bitch a bit and get over with it
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
07:53 p.m.
Just Communication (Instrumental)
if you don't know where that song came from, you deserve to be shot.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM! ..sorry i didn't post it up yesterday..
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
07:54 p.m.
Fly to the Sky-Magic Song
WOW I LOVE THIS SONG! IT'S SO BOPPY! IT'S LIKE ANOTHER "GOING TO EACH OTHER"!..
i really hate people tha tmake a lot of sns.. it's such a big pain.. i don't know why they do it. so from now on, if i find out that you're not using a perfectly good sn. then im just going to not talk to you.. simply because you're an asshole. that's the end of that.
Monday, September 20, 2004
11:44 p.m.
Little by Little-shimi wo yasashi sa ni.
Let's see, right now i hafta go pritn articles...pretty plain day..blogging because imt aking a "break".. anyway i've been under the weather ever sense saturday, so i still don't feel so good. ok so onto my day. Woke up, rushed to school, went to first and learned about properties..boring..then cheung..i didn't feel so good so i couldnt really sing..hung out and try to keep on memorizing quotes and agds. 3rd..looked at cards and got tests back..i got a 97! w00t!.. 4th we had a sub, so worked and listened to music. 5th was just review for test...6th was ok..more outlines...went home went to "_______" and then slept, woke up, hw. now im here.
Sunday, September 19, 2004
11:03 p.m.
Se7en-Honey I Know
DANG I LOVE THIS sONG! w00t. I'm making so many exceptions that it doesn't matter anymore. I mean i talked to leo pansy and marzipan today. So no point in putting up a rule. I just wont be tlaking to you. if you want to talk to me. then go ahead. I just might not be very positive.
Sunday, September 19, 2004
03:29 p.m.
Taebin Se7en Wheesung-Real Luv Story
DANG I LOVE THIS sONG! w00t. I'm still angry but these little things calm me down, like jacking vox's no right click thing.. (how did i do it without right clicking? =0) i love my internet browser, provided by SBC YAHOOOO! hehe.. so no jacking my pictures, park han byul is mine.
Sunday, September 19, 2004
11:39 a.m.
air-surfin on a rock
that's it. it's official, the only way anyone from sm is gonna get to even talk to me is through this fucking shit in which i am thinking of shutting down and turning into some fansite for some crappy artist that i like...like utada or something. i don't know. this has just gotten to a point where i don't care. im gonna turn of this computer until i know for SURE i get into some prep school. then i come on and laugh with joy and laugh at san marino and cry because ill be OUT OF HERE! GOOD BYE GOOD LuCK! I GAVE UP ON BEING "FRIENDS" WITH YOU GUYS! BECAUSE YOU. ARE. FUCKED. UP!!
gg
Saturday, September 18, 2004
11:47 p.m.
Fly to the Sky-Habit
What a bad influence I am, I mean everything i do either gets unregonized or goes the wrong way. No more "advice giving". Either way i've decided to end most of my social life until i get into a prep school..hopefully get into a prep school. Until then i will only talk to a select few of people, who as of right now only includes bryan wei, courtney kim, and joyce huang. -_- haha. gl guys, i hope i never see the rest of you again.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
11:32 p.m.
Jang Nara-Geu Gae Jung Mai Ee Ni [Band Version]
a lot of things remind me of joyce, one of them being Park Han Byul, because she seems so calm, so beautiful. Nothing seems to be wrong when you see both of them.. They calm me down. Therefore, my new layout is of Park Han Byul because she's so damn sexy
Thursday, September 16, 2004
09:41 p.m.
Taebin Se7en and Wheesung-Real Luv Story
this is so fucking gay, my mom forgets to pick me up, and blames me for not being able to finish my hw, and guess what? this isn't the first time! it's 9:43 and i haven't been able to start my hw! she expects be to be godlike with shit hours of sleep a day. My head is literally dead. and what kind of fucking support do i get from my buds? nothing. Great buds i have. i really wish joyce were here, she knows how to make me smile. damn i miss you so fucking much lady. i love you. i hate this. I WANT TO DIE
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
08:43 p.m.
Taebin-The Reason For Closing My Eyes
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURTNEY!
::BLOWS PARTY HORN:: YAYY!!!
courtney's the best friend anyone could ever ask for
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
04:36 p.m.
DAI-Tooku Made
Let's see, today's entry will be about the people who's affected my life significantly this week [past 5-7 days].
Jen Lee-For giving me a pic for bio
Pansy Chu-for hopefully giving me the 2nd Se7en cd
Courtney Kim-for being one helluva gf x] and having her bday today.
jeff chen- for giving me a ride when i was too lazy to walk. and finally..GOD..because i believe in him again because of the things he's given me.
This post is also about commenting. I like it when people comment, it makes me realize you guys are reading the mindless shit i put up..
Monday, September 13, 2004
04:51 p.m.
Utada Hikaru-Can You Keep A Secret?
Let's see, today's entry will be about my day. went to school, couldnt wake up though and started falling asleep first period..lol..math is hella boring..quiz tomorrow..lets see then choir..im 2nd tenor..because..rofl we're the most silent group. lets see..then 3rd period..which was..spanish..yes..spanish..interesting..then 4th..english..yes..english...interesting..then 5th which was bio... man i loved my bio proj thing.. Jen Lee you are my new hero. Sarang Hae Yo, Nabichen. xP..then speech..we printed out stuff while screaming at sadun.. im the only freshmen and they pick on me >< hahaha..walked home and yeah..helped my cousin back some stuff up.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
11:41 a.m.
Utada Hikaru-Final Distance
Another moment deserves another space
In the light of the people surrounding me, the pure ignorance of it. I'm bringing up an example of the thought in the previous post.
I am to move, simple as that. Now we're here wondering, "eh, we'll worry about it when the time comes." But by that it's too late and the moment of truth will come when i realize who cares and who doesnt with the statement of either "Kevin's gone?" or "I can't believe i didn't say goodbye, and i miss him already" who would you be? I haven't drawn close with people like thura or patty who left. But the people i was close to i remain close to. I remain a positive attitude with people like Thera, who I consider as one of my closest friends, someone that i can confide in. Now when I leave will I say, "Oh darn, I miss Peo or I miss Annelise." I really don't know. What they've given me can't compare to what someone like Courtney Kim or Bryan Wei has given me. Hope. Hope that something would've gotten better. SHe wasn't always there becasue she can't be. So who would i rather thank? And will they remember me? Maybe it's my fault for ignoring them. for ignoring you... Plus i just realized, I might not see any of you ever again or even talk to anyone. With this private school thing, My internet access might be very limited with no time to goof off at all. So heed this, if you think you care or you know you care about me or someone else. MAKE SURE YOU SPEND TIME WITH THEM fuck, i don't care if you do or don't. I care about you.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
11:32 a.m.
Utada Hikaru-Colors
I'm having another personal hikki fest. simply because she's my favorite artist and i love her music [except her american album]..
The mind of the average human
People always say that they don't know what they lose or can lose until they loose it. Much like murphy's law. If something can happen, it will [i think..].. So why do we as humans push ourselves to that extent? Why don't we enjoy the time we have with the people we are with instead of worrying about ones we have lost. It's an endless cycle, like the clay marble a childish book yes, but one that moved me unlike any other. It showed me the stupidity of humanity and life. In a sense where i changed how i lived. In reading a couple profiles, seeing how people were down for the gone and the lost ones. They only mourn for the dead, but don't celebrate for the living. How come I am the only one that notices the stupidty within us. Sometimes I find myself unable to control the emotion of losing something. Yet I realize that i am being emotional and fight it, with the fullest extent of my ability. and i think others should to. Plus I think I'm the only one that can truely say I've lost something. Things that I've held dear, yet slipped between my fingers. Why is God torturing me this way? and this leads me back to religion, which brings up another thought for another day. Today we ponder about the human mind and it's functions. Why we love and hate, hurt and care for, or mourn or celebrate. Think about why you do the things you do. See if you're hurting someone or actually doing the right thing.
Thursday, September 9, 2004
10:01 p.m.
BoA-We
I'm in a state of misery. My ankle's fucked, and i can't do basketball, but hey, i made cut because im tall. Oh well, quit so im doing speech and prolly choir. then maybe bball for winter, maybe not..depends on ankle. doing golf for sure. Lets see.. went back to mr. ho today. Was disabled for the most of the day and felt like shit and almost fell asleep doing hw. Watched 2nd quarter of Pats Colts game. Football is brilliant. That's it. I love Song Hye Gyo and Park Han Byul.. love em.
Wednesday, September 8, 2004
04:39 p.m.
Jolin-Disappearing Castle
ok day.. school, which is already getting pretty boring... ill prolly get cut from bball..oh well.. i have this new obsession with korean ladies.. cause they're mighty hot!..oh yeah, btw.. i got with courtney yesterday.. even though it's a joke.. but yeah
Song Hye Gyo..CREDIT TO VOX! even though he told me not to use this pick sorry lah
by far the best pic i've seen of her
Park Han Byul, so many people hate her.. lol some say she's a jun ji hyun wannabe..oh well! she's still prettycreds to that guy on soompi.com
prettyyy...
Tuesday, September 7, 2004
03:00 p.m.
Von BOndies-Cmon Cmon
Today I learned a very important lesson.
Never trust one's word, but one's action, lets take Rose for instance (Rose is the alias for someone at SMHS, someone in 9th grade, and someone that was once very dear and very close to me) Now that this is said, the person who I'm speaking of should instantly go, "Oh shit, what did I do now"
Rose's words said she would do this and that, but did she? no. Thus, making her words false and me once again in anger at her. I hate liars.. really really hate them. GL HF! I'M GONE THEN IT'S DONE! Then I won't have to see, talk, or hear you ever again.
As for the rest of the day, it was boring.
Friday, September 3, 2004
09:48 p.m.
Utada Hikaru-Hikari Remix
I dont feel so good, but some people just know how to keep my hopes up, no matter what. You guys saved my life today. thanks.
btw i hate my family. so damn much
Friday, September 3, 2004
08:18 p.m.
Sugizo - Missing
Some people wanted to know my schedule, and im too lazy to type it up all the time, and no space in pf.
Geometry Honors
Speech
Spanish 3-4
English 1-2 Honors
Biology
PreBball
Thursday, September 2, 2004
11:51 p.m.
Wolf's Rain-Shiro's Long Tail
Woke up early today because of another nightmare, havent slept much lately, walked down to hs, met people then went inside for asb assembly, it reminded me of how stupid i mustve looked doing asb =].. Then walked around, looked at club things, so frickin crowded.. watched fred act like a dumbass with lean back and pubmasters.. rofl.. ed and derek kept saying "oh man...so embarrasing" fucking funny. And then went to register, got my schedule in no time, but took forever to get laurens, people kept making me walk back and forth...took forever... then went to get pictures ANOHTER FRICKIN LONG TIME! then went to get books ANOTHER FRICKIN LONG TIME! Wasted my whole day. THen went to get boba, walked home. NS for a couple hours, went to golf where i met sally, joyce, diane, amy, and a buncha other people i dont know. they were all bugging me and stuff -_-;;..started back to the basic swing, came home watched tv, ate A LOT! and then dled some stuff. now im sleeping
reminder: sharon sun gets to slap me when i do something idiotic
Wednesday, September 1, 2004
01:27 p.m.
Wolf's Rain-Face On
Let's see, tutor in a bit, been playing natural selection, helluva game. IT's like starcraft mixed with cs in every way possible. tutor in a couple minutes. Went shopping yesterday for stuff for school, and then came home, ate. I only ate mexican stuff yesterday, until coldstones with johnathan song and calvin tainted it. Then came home from service to eat pi dan sou ruo zhou. Good stuff, only porridge ill ever eat. Was hella tired so i went to sleep, tomorrow marks day one of hell.
Monday, August 30, 2004
10:47 p.m.
Utada Hikaru-Letters
My friends, i give you an example of retards with no brains.. and i hereby give you the definition of the major population of San Marino,
XxXSoraXxX and Marth R T3H R3T4RD1!!!1!
warning: Long emotional post ahead
how can i start? School starts in a week, i have a jammed pack week and i forgot to turn in my registration packet. And instantly, the exact stress that kido told me to avoid in hs comes, every last drop. The reason for my bitching, for my retardation is not to make you feel bad. Oh no, its for me to express myself so i dont keep it bottled in, thus resulting in some kind of dramatic emotional explosion that gets someone hurt/killed. Every step i took, deprivation from the world, locking myself in, has completely failed. So who's fault is it? I mean, i lead myself down this path, which looked perfectly fine, except for the giant hole taht i have yet to come out of, it probably is fine. Not only that, the only salvation from this hole that i see is one year from now, when i (hopefully) move to Boston, I mean, to be in this low, and still digging, until you are forced to fall and die off, it's just stupid. Man, I am not looking forward to freshmen year. at all.
and now to continue my new found stress reliever, listening to Hikki's music and uploading her pics onto my pitas.
she is my first female role model, a very good one i might add
Monday, August 30, 2004
03:05 p.m.
BoA-Pit A Pat
this is a comic that i found deep in my archives.. even though i only got it one month ago.. really funny. creds to bryan wei
click on picture to open a new window for real comic.
Monday, August 30, 2004
02:38 p.m.
Ryohei Yamamoto-This I Promise You
I love this song, He sings it better then Nsync ever will. Lets see, pretty eventful already, woke up early, watched tv, walked to hs to meet up with thera, saw chris yang there, and then annelise came, then i had to leave. Pretty weird, but sure. Saw football people, saw lauren in tennis, saw volleyball people and peo's BRACES ::snickers:: i dont need braces nyah nyah nyahhh now im looking for luna sea songs, because i love Sugizo's melodies. He rocks my socks.
btw, i do miss you.
Sunday, August 29, 2004
11:20 p.m.
Utada Hikaru-Hikari Remix
Just finished watching olympic closing ceremony and saw yellowcard get mtv2 and linkin park get viewer's choice. hella tight. Anyway, mom and bro out of town, my grandma's here but she doesn't care what i do, so it's basically freedom, except for the fact that my grandma worries like hell anyway. today. today i csed and kingdom hearts some more, tomorrow i get back to work and go meet up with some people. and yeah...yeah.. btw courtney feel better.
Saturday, August 28, 2004
09:02 p.m.
Ryuusei-TiA
This reminds me of the old BoA songs..hahaha, which reminds me of Utada and her hotness. ::drool:: Well anyway, grandma's here so bring on the loudness ::puts on headphones:: now i can't hear them!. Went out to eat..hao nian dung. Let's see...went swimming, more kh, im already at alantica. after 10 hours. yeap. not continuous of course, now im talking to 3 sexy ladies and enjoying the pain in my eyes from all the chlorine that got into it! w00t pain!..
Friday, August 27, 2004
11:40 p.m.
Jay Chou-Jie Ko
EDIT, looked retarded.
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well im still very very angry, i've never been so angry in my life. oh well, anyway, i came here to dedicate my heart and mind to courtney kim and joyce huang, because they're the two people that i trust the most. btw, sorry courtney, sarang hae yo ^_^. You guys make my day a lot better. you guys are why i'm still walking today. Thanks, dunno what i'd do without you.
btw, i know it's me, don't lie to me, everything points to me
Friday, August 27, 2004
10:33 p.m.
Sugizo & Mui Sakamoto - The Eighth Colour
this is so depressing, man i can't live like this, im so close to killing myself, i know something in me tells me my life is pretty damn good, but it hurts so much, and i don't know why. I'm such a fucking fool, maybe the world will be better off with out me. Man, this is an all time low. An all time frickin low.
-gg i lose
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thinking of utada and while listening to her songs calms me down... rofl.. plus i never truly knew how beautiful she was ><
IMAGE FROM VISUALAZN.NET!~
so pretty..
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all this fuss over one small person made me forget to write about what i did today! well usa lost to argentina, so the best chance we haev i a bronze =\ and then kingdom hearts some more and then did some community service for hours. yeap.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
11:00 p.m.
Renee Chen-Wo deng de ren hui shi shui
this deserves another post.
TAIWAN WON TWO GOLD MEDALS!! w00T! YEAH!!
::dances::
Thursday, August 26, 2004
10:19 p.m.
Utada Hikaru-Ditance Mflo Remix
lets see. stopped csing for the day because it was getting laggy, it was fuckign funny. yeah. lets see.. america beats spain today, marbury scored 31 points, i dunno now if then win the next game or lose and win they can get a medal whoo! and then went golfing on course, played 3-4 holes and made double bogeys on most adn then i saw amy and sally and nelson! my first contact with 9th graders for a month and a half! lets seee..watched a bit of tv and started kingdom hearts again becasue it's the best game ever. now im checkin on my daily site.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
10:58 p.m.
Janne da Arc-Heaven's Place
here's a note. eveyrone..EVERYONE should comment.
I'm here to make some statements:
1: LEO HATES AMERICA and commenting..that fag...
2:Peo's alive, mysteriously...
3:Courtney, I repeat..COURTNEY DOES NOT ROCK MY SOCKS!
4:Arielle's a Ditcher.
5:Bryan Wei's still grounded. whadda loser
6:Bryan Shieh's queer as hell and wants to dj if i ever get a radio station
::DOES A LITTLE DANCE::
oh yeah im high, but you dont notice it
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
09:53 p.m.
Sugizo & Ryuichi Sakamoto - The Eighth Colour
This is one of the prettiest songs. lol. anyway, lots of site management, working on radio station today. Tutor didn't show so I ended up gaming a big. Downloaded a few new songs and talked to a couple people. I think my mental condition is getting better by the day, although i still have my depression moments with flashbacks and wrong words
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
11:00 p.m.
Cherry Filter-Tick Tock
INFERNAL AFFAIRS III DIRECTORS CUT! AHHH!!! Leon and Tony are my super freak heros "dua bu chi, wo shu jing tsa" W00t! lol..sorry..helluva movie, if brad pitt messes up on andy lau's part for America i will make it my personal goal to hunt him down.. SUCH GOOD ACTING!! ahh! favorite movies are infernal affiars 1, 3, and wonderful days ^_^ anyway csed a lot today. need to help someone with cs skins later.
Monday, August 23, 2004
11:38 p.m.
Jay Chou-Ban Dao Tie He
i just finished Hero and ate a lot of pizza. because i was hungry. now im gonna grow uber fat. yeah ok. anyway ordered a backpack online today and ... im gonna get new shoes soon? iono.. rofl.. Hero's a good movie btw.. i wanna watch infernal affairs 3 director's cut. infernal affiars is like the matrix of hong kong. ahahah. well im gonna get it on wed! w00t! so random..super fob heheheh ok..
Monday, August 23, 2004
04:37 p.m.
David Tao + Tension- I Believe
im posting because i'm bored.. went to dentist today.. and then i played maggie pool! now im trying to find more jay chou and david tao songs.. yeahh lol..btw COURTNEY KIM ROCKS MY SOCKS
Saturday, August 21, 2004
10:35 p.m.
Ryohei Yamamoto-This I Promise You
geez.. i really really hate San Marino.. If i make it into some private school, i'll probably go boarding fora year or two.. then if my bro joins then my family will move here.. no difference because then i'll actually have a clue what's going on... fucking a.
Saturday, August 21, 2004
12:09 a.m.
Song:Cherry Filter-Snowman
yeeah.. well i just watched paycheck.. i like it a lot..whether danny the damn film critic says it sucks or not.. rofl screw you danny... anyway im in one of my depression right before i sleep..which history has shown..doesnt suit me well.. rofl.. well im here to tell you that my horrible life has just turned worse. great. oh yeah.. i think im falling for her even more
Friday, August 20, 2004
02:16 p.m.
Music-Asian Kung-Fu Generation - Rewrite
i had a crappy day... first im forced to go out and eat and then my bro just keeps acting like he's the shit.. eh w/e... plus i thinking im turning back to my depressed/cutting myself phase again..
anyway..please don't abuse the comment box or i'll ban.. not that you care, but you won't be able to be gay anymore..and you know you abuse guys love being fags and spam when you cant find another man to fuck
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rofl.. im talking to michael, and his life is based on counter-strike..which is pretty sad.. i mean that's down to ryan lee's level..because he ffxi without sleep and everything..rofl.. i feel sorry for him.
Thursday, August 19, 2004
01:06 p.m.
Music:Nothing
Just finished Wonderful Days..again..ahahah I love that movie... anyway someone asked what it was about so here goes... its 2174 and during the 21st century a buncha guys moved of on to Sisil Island in the Pacific, creating a second Noah's Ark called ECOBAN. When thousands of refugees came in searching for sanctuary, they rejected. Now there are two "races" of people, the Marrians (Marr) and ECOBAN. ECOBAN is a facility that feeds of pollution, and now is losing all of it's energy because the pollution is running out. A resistence has started against ECOBAN by the Marrians. Now the main character comes in.. Shua is a ECOBAN outcast, he supposedly commited murder when he was young. He and his childhood friend Jay, who is now a security officer for ECOBAN, one day looked out and saw a rare sunrise (the rain has been going on for a whole century, thus "Noah's Ark") and was dubbed "wonderful day" by the two of them. Shua and the man he's working for, Dr. Noah plan on shutting down ECOBAN and restoring the blue sky ending the so called "utopia" ECOBAN before the wipe out the Marrians. It tells of Jay's and Shua's story. It's a great movie and everyone should watch it. Kickass visuals and action.. kind of bloddy though..lol
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
10:36 p.m.
Music:Jay Chou-Stranded
..still need more space. so i took this from peo
o1: what was your first impression of me:
o2: tell about one memory we share together:
o3: describe me in four words:
o4: name one thing you really don't like about me:
o5: name one thing you really do like about me:
o6: have i ever broken your trust:
o7: have i ever offended you:
o8: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
o9: have we ever hugged:
1o: have you ever seen me cry:
11: what is something embarrassing that i've done:
12: what do i usually look like when you see me:
13: what do i say all the time:
14: do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
15: do you think i am fake or genuine:
16: do you love me:
17: has there been anything you wanted to ask me, but didnt:
18: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
19: what would be the theme song of my life:
20: is there a song that reminds you of me:
21: is there something that i do all the time, but probably dont know that i do:
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
10:23 p.m.
Music:Boa-Etude
blog needs the traffic, plus i wanna test my invisible scroll bar... rofl.. i had problems today when the damn scroll bar messed up the pics and i had to shift everything and GAH IT WAS JUST A PAIN! well lets see. woke up did hw while trying to make a layout, i actually made like 5.. and then i saw wonderful days right infront of me and decided to make a layout with that. finished right before english tutor came. after i ate...ribs, cauliflower, and mashed potatoes. mom went to a dodgers game i refused to go to. and then played MARIO HAT DEFENSE!helluva game. yeah..here i am now ignoring everyone that's talking to me so i can...write...great..